So I got my new computer. It will take some getting used to so this will be a short entry. My other computer worked on and off since I last posted but did not have much time to get on it. I got pretty sick the last week or so. I got a bad inner ear infection and sore throat. This led to me not being able to talk, and so, not able to work. There was a few nights it got so bad I would have went to the hospital if I knew someone who drove.

I am better now, I just still have hearing loss, so I am going to the doctor tomorrow about it. Got an appointment at 9am. I took Ty's shift tomorrow so I work PM seater I need it cause I have been off so much.

Today I woke up at 7am and got ready and went to Epcot for about 8am, then found out I couldn't get an appointment till tomorrow. So I left and got on the Monorail and went to the transportation and ticket center and took the bus to the bank from there to try to cash my Money Orders, but they wouldn't accept them. So I went all the way back home and walked over to Publix to try there, but they don't cash them either. So I went on the one other bus and went to the post office to cash them. Luckily they did, but I left my phone on the bus and needed it to call the bus to pick me up. So I went to a pizza place and asked if I could use their phone, so I called the bus and it came and picked me up and I stopped at the Vista Way housing place to get my cell phone from the lost and found. And they gave it to me. So I then went home and got ready and went back out to go to wal mart to get this new computer. So once done I got it up and running and Sam called and asked to go out to eat together so I went out with her.

So that is about it really that I wish to share. Just thought I would update anyone who might be reading this. :P

You died doing what you love best... sleeping.

So ya thoese who have me on facebook probbly already know this. It kept going and coming back and going and coming back. But this last time which was sevral days ago now, it went and though I have tried and tried and tried all I can do, it wont come back on. So I am packing it up and will take it home when I go to. It REALLY sucks. I am just starting to get regular days off again, I wanted to start drawing a bit more and such. I dont have the money for a new computer at all. I think I will just save up and get one of thoese little ones. Wont be able to draw, and wont be able to store much pictures, but atleast I will be able to get on the internet.

Right now any time I am on, I am using the computers down at the club house, at Cast Services or my roommate's computer.

I am just REALLY hoping that I didnt lose everything on my computer. So much good stuff stored on there. It will kill me to hear that it is all gone now and I wont be able to go on it anymore.

Anyway so not like you heard from me a lot to begin with... but atleast now I got a reason. LOL.

OMG as much as I don't like the thought of moving home. I am super excited about my vacation home to visit. I miss my dogs a lot and really want to see my friends again as a whole. Not just one once in a while.

There is so much I want to experience back at home that I don't have here. One being sitting in my room and drawing. Using the flash program that I have back home that actually works. OMG the joy of inking a picture nicely when I draw it. That would be amazing. I would be so happy.

I want to pet a dog again. Might sound crazy but I have not pet a dog since I left home. I see pictures of my dogs but that is not the same as being with them. Getting down and giving them a big hug. (Not sure about the ferrets yet... I am only just starting to miss them. LOL. That is what happens when they are my roommates back home. Took me a while to get used to things not being rearranged by fuzzy worms.)

I want to go to Timmies again, and bowling with my friends. I want to just see what that is like again. Some of my friends I have not seen since I left.

I also cant wait to sit and write. I have really gotten more creative here I think. Maybe this place does that to you. But I want to just sit and write. Weather I ever share what I write I don't know, but I just want to be able to do that. Put on all my music from back home and just write up a storm. Let my creativity go.

And another thing I want to do is sit and play all my fav. old games again. OMG I need to do that. I was listening to some of the music the other day and it is hard to think it has almost been a year since I really sat down and played them. I know I wont get them all done but you can guarantee after I take my dogs for a long walk I will be getting into my room and sitting down and popping in Kings Quest 7 and playing it from start to finish... then calling my friends and seeing if they want to go to Timmies. My first day is all planned out. LOL. I arrive at like 2pm or something if all goes well. Still have to plan a few things and such but I am pretty excited.

And basically all in all, I want to see if I will go crazy when the move happens. This week off is going to be the end of September and beginning of October. And I actually fully move back home in December. So this will allow me to take some of my stuff home that I wont need for the last two months, and come back for what will seem like a blink of an eye, but maybe I will appreciate it to it's fullest even more after going home and reminding myself in just two months I will be doing that for good.



In other news, I met BeeKay, who came to visit for 4 days. I am sure she can agree it was 4 crazy days, but well worth it. Not much worked out on my part. Couldn't get time off to spend with her so I only got one day to spend fully with her. One of my friends was nice enough to take my shift the day she was leaving so I could spend more time with her before she left. I loved having her here cause even when things did not work out she appreciated it all. I don't think I once heard her complain that things did not go well, though I myself spent more time complaining about it then she did. So I feel every almost sleepless nights I had that week was WELL worth it for her. And I still have a free pass for when dad comes in September cause it is block out dates for cast members bringing in guests in Magic Kingdom right now.

Not much other news then that. Next few days will be rather interesting. I am back down to one "hero" with me as of tomorrow. (And I work about 10 days straight. That might kill me but at least it will give me enough money to pay for my trip home.) I just have to face next Monday alone and I can survive that I am sure. (I hate Mondays, for the past few months every Monday I want to self terminate myself by half way though the day. I am always debating going into the office and telling them I am walking out. But I got to the point I know that all changes around by Tuesday... Which makes me wonder... how did I ever make it the 10 days of hell.)

Anyway so that is all the news I have for you. So you can expect some real artwork coming from me on that week I am home. Not a lot... but some. I got some great ideas. Might get one or two done.

OMG so much stuff to say. Good and bad. Let me start off with Canada Day.

So I was moved to a new location. Against my will I was torn from all the other Canadians on Canada day and thrown into Character Spot. Dont get me wrong... neat job. Loved working with the characters and such... BUT I just really wanted to be back with my family. So much that when my managers sent me away to go be with them I had a hard time leaving to come back. I got there and no one recognized me as Canadian which was sad. I had to go to the managers to get a pin to prove I was Canadian. (Love the pin) and then went back and got food. Though not many people stopped to say hi to me in the break trailer the main ones did. I got to sit with my favorite people... I loved it. Everyone else for some reason was jealous. Why, on any other day ya I have to admit to get out and do something else was fun. But on Canada day. The rest of the day crawled by cause I hated to think of how much fun everyone was having without me. I couldn't even go back after work. I just wanted to go home. It was pretty depressing.

I had the next day off which was good. Physio in the morning, and then Wal Mart in the evening. I spent a lot of the day watching things on you tube and just having a relaxing day.

Next morning I had Physio again. That was fun. Only one of the physio therapists was there and she looked after all of us. It was like a party though. First time in Physio I got talking to other people really. See it is a Disney only physio therapy place. So the three I got talking to was a girl from the Block Party Parade, one of the tumble monkeys from festival of the lion king, and an older fella who worked in security at Epcot. I loved it. Best appointment EVER. After I was done I went home and realized that cause one of our roommates left that morning we got our locks replaced. So I had to walk all the way back to the club house, exchange my key and then walk all the way back here. I was happy to just start up the computer and sit and watch TV for a bit.

After I went to work. I had to make some reservations.. or atleast one. And I wanted to go talk to my managers about what was going on. About being removed from the Canadian Pavillion. In the end I found myself in the modified labor office finally hearing what I should have heard the other day. This was not allowed. I should not have been sent away from Canada. After much try to get ahold of all the managers involved I was sent back to see my managers. That was good. Glad I ran into my fav. one first cause apparently all the other ones hate me right now. He was really cool about everything, as I had hopped. Thank god we have someone cool like him.

After I stopped out front to see a friend of mine who was picking up a podium shift and made some reservations. My friend from Germany who I have known online for a few years is coming to visit... so I thought we should book the German restaurant for dinner. So I got that and got to see my friend. Then as I was leaving I decided this was my time to celebrate. So I went and got myself a chilly cheese dog... ya probably not the best thing to eat, and a coke. Ate that up and drank the coke and then thought there was one more thing missing. I went back to the popcorn cart in Canada and got a beer. Two of my friends were working. Sam and Mel. They got me my beer and then my nose caught the scent of Managers (no kidding... I can smell them. Not like it is a bad smell but I can pick it up if I cross their path so I know where they are.) My eyes unfocused from Sam and Mel and focused on the background to see three of the managers heading up to the popcorn cart. I quickly said my goodbyes and that I had seen the managers and then I left.

I had my beer and even got a picture of me with it. I called in my celebration beer. To celebrate all the things that were worth celebrating. Like being back to work where I belong, my friends birthday, my friend from Germany coming to visit, and all the people who make my life awesome. I thought of it all. Best beer ever... and then Sam walked by and asked if I wanted to come out to eat with them at the cafe. So I did. Had to chug the last part of my beer then headed off to the cafe with her and met up with a few others. It was nice to sit and chat. We all talked about a lot of stuff that was good to talk about. Like managers and such. Seems a lot of people like the ones that dont like me. But I do find it funny that mainly the people who came when the one I like the least first started... they all like her. BUT the ones that were here back when our old Manager was, dont like her.

I didn't feel too well so thought I should leave. Plus I didn't want my roommate to get home too soon after me. I wanted to relax and take in my happiness about everything. Just as I was leaving I noticed my one friend walking way ahead... I THOUGHT of running up to say hi... but he said see you on Monday... and I always figure my weekend goes better if I let that be the way it was last said... and then of course our bus came. I ran to get it, not making myself feel any better but the bus was nice and air conditioned so I felt better soon. I then got back to the appartment and drew pictures like crazy. I was just so fully of joy. LOL.

So I am back in Canada. I am so excited about that. I would like to go to Kidcot, hope that is where they send me as it would be too much training involved to put me out at merch.


So here I am... I start work at Noon. Not quite sure when I am done but I am so happy to be working. It is the weirdest thing ever. I dont care how long I work I just want to be back "Home."


Pictures will come. I dont want to worry about it right now as I have to get ready for work soon. But pictures will come when I get some time again. (Not sure how late I work tonight but if I get off in good time I will hopefully get some up.)

Ok... so yesterday was a mix of amazing and bad. I guess that makes a lot of sense though. The one manager I don't get along with got her way though. I guess I didn't totally help. I should have kept my mouth shut till I had someone to help me. Instead I was determined for a little pay back. I never got my pay back cause when my fav. manager got there all the anger went out the window. I couldn't be a jerk anymore. Grrr... I wanted to so bad. I had a perfect plan, but just couldn't do it. What got me is she passed around a card to get everyone to sign it welcoming him back... and I was one of the few people who didn't get to sign it cause she never showed it to me. She even picked it up quickly right after Robyn signed it so I wouldn't see what it was but Robyn told me later. Phhh whatever... I was visibly the most happy person that he was back. I did not need no card to prove how grateful I was of his return.

In the end last night I did get a talk with my fav. manager to tell him maybe 1/4 of what has been going on. I know he cant do anything and I let him know that was not what I expected. All I wanted was someone to listen to me so maybe they would see the things I am seeing and just make them better OR even just make things better by understanding that this is what goes on. Like seriously I never noticed but a smile from management is good. Lets me know I am not in the bad books and such. You know I had not seen anyone on our regular management team even smile at me for 10 days. I know the one who I formerly did not get along with would but she was not there... or if she was we missed each other. But I didn't even realize how great it was just to get a smile once in a while.

Well I am now moved somewhere else... and to start it off it is Canada day. SOOOOO while everyone else is getting the real Canada Day experience, I will be off somewhere else. I hate it. It really feels like I am being punished... couldn't they have waited ONE MORE DAY... I mean I went two full weeks without them sending me away. Why the day before Canada day was it time.

But I was invited over to eat, and get my pin for Canada day. I cant wait. I wish so much I could work there with my pin on. Today it is rainy, really yucky looking. Thunderstorm like weather. But I will bring my camrea and I REALLY hope to make a nice Canada Day collection of stuff. I will get some videos and pictures and maybe put them together to share with you here. So keep an eye out. I don't think I am going out tonight. I cant drink anyway and unless someone invites me I don't think I will just show up somewhere to stand off on my own while everyone parties. So I wont have crazy party pictures. But I will have work pictures and such... MAYBE.:)

What a title. LOL. I am like addicted to Tuna... Poor fish... why does it have to be so tasty.

Last couple of days have been brutal. Guests are really crazy all of a sudden. Is it the heat that is getting to them or what. But they are. Like violent crazy guests. Three nights in a row security has been called. I was directly involved the one night. So I can quickly tell you about that day.

I had to be up at 6am cause I had physio. What was good was my roommate ALSO had to be up cause it was her Disney Graduation. So we both got up together. I caught a cab at 6:45am outside the commons and went over to Physio. I had my appointment and it went well. But you know how they are with that stuff. Make you move in ways you couldn't move before even to test how far you can go. LOL. So needless to say I was VERY sore when I got back to work. I noticed it was the person I like the least on greeting but if one thing was certain, he would want to switch with me to be a seater. This would make it MUCH easier for my arm as Greeting hurts a lot less. So I went to find our manager. HAPPY it was not the one that hates me I went into the office to catch our Area manager before she leaves. I asked her if I could greet cause I just got back from physio and my arm hurt. She began to ask me all these things like "cant you just hand out the menus with the other arm" and such. I was confused. What she did not realize was even holding the books with that arm would be sore. I mean not saying I couldn't do it for an hour or so but the whole 6 hours... that is painful. Very painful. And probably would not be helping it heal at all. I don't know about her but I am hoping to get this pain over with soon so I can get back to stocking... my fav. job. But then she goes on to tell me that I have not done a good job as greeter and she didn't want to deal with it... "WHAT?" If I such at greater is it a lot to do with the fact I was not trained by anyone. The person who trained me on greeting is the same person who puts down for a description that it is their birthday... and it is not even their birthday. (I am NOT making fun of him at all. Just stating a fact, I appreciate that he taught me cause the fact I know anything in greeting is cause of him.) But no fricken wonder I suck. I had NO trainer. One girl agreed to sign my folder. I never got anything read to me out of the book, I was just quickly explained things and that is it. She was not one of our best trainers and would later prove to be someone who would back stab me and try to get me to terminate. But really. So less then 10 times in my 7 months of being here have I forgot to hit details when someone wants a high chair or something. Like REALLY. Cause no one has ever made that mistake before. I must be a horrible person. So one manager I thought would be the most helpful during this down time of my fav. manager proves to be ready to kick me when I am down as well. How very nice of her. By this point I was ready to say "Ok, I think I have screwed up my table numbers a few times too. Perhaps I should just go home then if you don't want to put up with my mistakes." But I didn't. It would have been the next thing out of my mouth if she didn't agree to something that I could not see how she could disagree with without looking like a total jerk. I said to give me one last chance. If I screw up once she can remove me from greeting. She agreed. And to make sure she got her way she told our assigner that this was going on and for him to let her know if I mess up once. You gotta be kidding me. Well jokes on her. I didn't mess up. The assigner came up to talk one time and said I forgot once about a high chair but that was just after break... so I am guessing I did not even check that party in. I did nothing different then I normally do. If I sucked so bad before how did I not suck this time. Where are these managers getting their information from. And how could they be so misinformed. I am tired of it.

During this day I worked hard, dealing with a LOT of pissed off guests. We got so very behind. Guests were becoming very stir crazy. One guy... and I remember when he checked in I told him we were running late. He said "Oh that is fine, we just wanted to get our name on the list as it is raining." I remember turning to my friend Erik and saying "I love it when the guests understand. Those are the good ones." It is just as hard for us to make them wait as it is for them to wait. Do any of them realize we dont go home till they are all sat anyway. So why would we purposely make them wait for the hell of it. NO one wants them to wait. In the prefect would we would have them all in by their reservation times. Anyway this guest later came back and began to complain. Complain complain complain. OMG and what made it worse is he kept bugging my only seaters... who hardly showed up to seat people anyway. (Not dissing them, they might have been bussing tables which is good but one should always be up front.) But he would hold them up and that makes everyone get behind. Guests were also bugging the assigner. OMG PLEASE dont bug the assigner. It does not help your cause and slows EVERYTHING down. The assigner cant assign you a table if your bugging them. And seaters cant seat people if your bugging them. Really you dont get down sooner by bugging. We seat in order of print up. So if your ticket is waiting but your harassing our seaters... your just prolonging your time. So dont be stupid, just sit tight. We dont mind you asking how long it will be but PLEASE dont harass us. It gets you no where but raises your blood pressure and makes you even more mad.

Now I am done that little rant, so this guy finally gets fed up. And asks to speak to a manager. Knowing who was the manager for the evening I smiled and said sure. It was the manager who hates me but one thing is certain she is a tough one. She may be shorter but she is tough. I could handle this. So I sent one of the seaters to go get the manager. To my amusement his ticket popped up then. Well, if your going to act like that and ask to see the manager perhaps you can spend your arguing time with the manager holding yourself up. So I got it ready and waited. Our manager came out to talk to him and he went on and on to her. For the first time in a long time I actually felt protective of her and almost stood up to him. I didn't though. I fought it off. The guest threatened to stay all night. Till midnight eating here. I had to stop myself from laughing. Seriously cause your mad you would ruin your family's extra magic hours at Epcot by staying in our restaurant and eating cause you cant handle us being about 50 minutes past your reservation. Security was called. At this point I was removed from Greeter. But I made it till 8:55pm so didn't care, there was only one more family to check in and they never showed so I would have sat some tables anyway. I sat this man and his poor family and then went to get the next group... and the next... and the next. Each of them all hated this other man as much as I did and told me so. The first group was so funny. the guy was like "Just so you know... we are not angry, so dont want any surprises in our food." He said with a laugh. I loved the way he put it. Not that we ever would do any surprises in peoples food it still made me laugh. The rest of the guests were funny too. One sat right neat the other group and they were like "OH NO. I just noticed we are right by them." I was like "Dont worry there is a table between you." It was great. I think that one guest took everyone else's anger away. They were mad but not that mad. After seating everyone I clocked out and went home. THANK GOD I had the next day off.

So Friday I was off. Not much went on. I couldn't eat too well. Stomach was unhappy. I didn't do much, played the Sims 3 for a bit, thought about sleeping, didn't sleep. I finally went to wal mart and bought food. I felt better after that. Lots of healthy food. I need that. KD is just not good for you. Especially when your lactose intolerant. Still couldn't eat much though. I ended up falling asleep with a marathon of Forensic Files on. So my dreams were really crazy. Like sick kind of crazy. I wont go into them in public here cause it is not really for kids. Kind of disturbing.

Then Yesterday... I was seater. And here is the rant part two. HOW DO SOME PEOPLE GET TO BE TRAINERS. The one guy training the new girl seriously... sucks at training. He does. Now if today when I ask about becoming a trainer, they say I cant... I will begin to think this place is headed for a serious downfall. I have taught before, I am good at it. I have been public speaking and teaching people things since I was 10. It is in me to help new people out. It is the strongest drive in me. I have a hard time letting the trainers train when the noobs are there cause I love to train. There is two top trainers that I must recognize. Tyler and Rebbecca. They are probably the best at training. David is headed there too. He is a great trainer. They are knowledgeable and very helpful. Someone who I also think should be in training is Sam. I can see her being a good trainer. But if they dont let me be a trainer they are missing out. I am not kidding. It is truly my BEST skill I have. You all think I am good at art but that is nothing compared to my ability to teach. It is so much in my blood I cant even stop myself from doing it when I shouldn't. But this new trainer, I mean really by the end of the night the poor new girl still was not sure about seating tables. He spent WAY too much time teaching her stuff she didn't need to know. During seating training you learn to seat. I was seating tables on my own within the first hour. I had Tyler as my trainer. That proves how good he is. The new girl sat her first table on her own around the end of her shift. Cause he also taught her how to greet and assign too. DON'T DO THAT. She will learn that stuff when she is trained in that. Not like on her first day she will suddenly be left up front all along and have to know how to greet. Her job is to learn to seat. And seating is tough. So much to memorize. Don't throw everything at the poor girl. Let her start learning her table numbers, the speech that you say, teach her how to do trivia with the guests, get her out to guest interaction on her own. You know that kind of stuff. But he spent so much time with her away from guests or doing stuff on the computer he acted like she was dumb. When all he was doing was overloading her. There is a lot to learn each day, but he tried to fit three days of learning into one. Anyway I just hate how he was all day. Being a trainer has gone to his head. He thinks he knows more then the rest of us. Erik asked if he could quiz his trainee and he was like "THAT IS MY JOB" Seriously.... no it isnt. It is everyones job. You make the best trainee when you let everyone take part in helping. Not saying everyone trains them but when I train I welcome others to jump in and ask them questions. They might ask them questions I have not thought of asking. Two heads are better then one.

That is really my biggest rant of yesterday. It was another insane day but that was my rant about it. Just putting up with that guy training. He should not be a trainer, or at least has a lot to learn about training people. Not saying he could never do it but they will seriously harm this place if they are putting people in as trainers just so they wont go into service. That is where this place will have a BIG downfall.

OMG I know... Two days in a row... it is a shock.

Today at work it started off bad. FIRST the 9:48am bus never showed up. So I had to catch the 10:03am bus. Once we got to Vista it waited for a while and kicked everyone who was standing off. THANK GOD I was not one of them. Then we got to Epcot and the security guard who checks our begs was like crazy checking. No one checks us that much.

I realize taking the lazy bus wont get me to work on time so I make a mad dash... or well quick walk across on stage. And as usual guests always seem to find you when your late for work. But of ALL the guests who could find me it was a couple who did not speak a word of English. OMG I felt so bad. I had no paper or anything for them to draw out what they wanted. Finally I got them to ask another cast member... at least they were at work already. I was free. Feeling like that took up more time then it actually did I took the quick way right though the restaurant and ran back stage and clocked in... OMG... and guess what... 5 minutes too early. This would mean another .5 point on my record card. Damn thoese stupid clocking points. I don't deserve them to screw my record card over. The one lady told me to go tell our manager. LOL. You can imagine how helpful that manager was... the one that doesn't like me.

Ya whatever. So I went to the break trailer and grabbed some M&M peanuts. They help me though the day. I got back to work and started work. OMG the starting of work was crazy. Actually for lunch... it was pretty crazy. Not often did we have no guests waiting. So not much drawing time for me. I couldn't help but chat... I was overly chatty with my fellow cast members today. THANK GOD for Mel who kept the guests occupied a lot. She was overly chatty with the guests... which can never be something you do too much of.

The day did not crawl by though. Which was good. I kept my distance from the phone as much as I could. Amazingly our manager did help me out with a guest who had some real problems with reservations. She really has improved with telling guests "no". We only had one crazy person today though who would not take no for an answer. That is pretty good. Not sure how it was this evening.

Lunch was good. I admit to taking longer then I should have but the most boring thing to do is sit and wait up front for the supper to start. Plus I was with friends. I just needed to chat with some people again. I miss that sometimes.

After lunch flew by. That last hour just jumped so fast. But gosh was it hot when I finished. I took some goodies from our GT and clocked out. She is such an awesome lady. I love both of our GT's they are awesome and always make my day in some way. :)

The trip home was crazy. I took the Lazy bus to Cast Services and then waited for the C bus to take me home. Man 15 minutes can seem like 3 hours in this heat. I cant believe how hot it is. I didn't know humans could survive this weather.

I came home and was happy to say the AC was left on. THANK GOD. So I am chilling with a fan keeping my and my computer extra cool. Tomorrow I have the day off so I am going to Animal Kingdom with Sam, and then hopefully to Games Night. I have not been for a few weeks and I think it will be fun to go to. Then I have 3 days of work and then I am off again for a day. But Friday I think I will just chill here. My roommate is going away so I will have the place to myself and need to enjoy it some. Maybe if I don't update this tomorrow (seeing as games night starts at 11:30pm) I will try to update on Friday maybe with some pictures from tomorrow.


Also note... CANADA DAY is coming up. I am super excited. I have the BEST shift ever for it. I work 6 hours from 11:30am till 5:30pm. It will be the BEST DAY EVER. I promise to bring my camrea to work that day. I promise to post something around that day to document how awesome that day is... cause apparently it is really fun. If your in Disney World July 1st, and wonder what park to go to... Go to Epcot and the Canadian Pavillion. It will be FULL of celebration.

So A La Cart has come in as the new system where we book reservations for people on. And I hate it. I am not the only one too. It is stupid. Takes at least 10 minutes to book something for someone so often we send the guest away rather then helping them anymore. Which I find sad. I LOVED helping guests find another place to eat. It made turning them away a little easier. It was not like "Sorry we are full. Have a nice day." But more like "Sorry we are full, but I can help you find another place and make you a reservation there." We were so well known for helping the guests out and it was probably my favorite way to do so.

Recently work has been busy. I have not had much time to really chat, write or even draw, no matter how many wonderful ideas come into my head. Facebook seems to be where I am most active as it is where I keep in contact with everyone the best. I know almost anyone who does not talk to me on MSN has not heard from me in a while. Sorry about that. Not really much to say... I can give you a quick version of it though.

Work has been crazy. Last two weeks I have worked 6 days with one day off. This also with a sore shoulder/back. Has nothing to do with the previous surgery I had on it. Rather a new injury. Which I can tell you has not put me in good with many of the managers. I get the feeling that all but one, dont seem to care much, nor do they really think before trying to help me out. Folding napkins I can tell you when you have a sore shoulder SUCKS. Hurts like hell. But I did it to keep them happy. Cause really, once they took me off stage what could I do.

I have a love hate relationship with work right now. I both love and hate it. And I really hate that I even hate it a little bit. Reason being without mentioning names, some new people just suck. I am sorry but they do. If you are confused as to if I am talking about you... come ask me. In person I have no problem letting you know if I think you suck or not. But in an ounce of niceness I wont mention names on here. (or make that... NAME... if that is a clue to anyone.)

I am sick and tired of how people are on podium really. You come here to work, not to pass off tickets to other people. Not to wonder away, hang out somewhere else... DO YOUR JOB. I am not one to go tell the managers. I am one to pick up the slack so we don't fail at all this. So that has made each day stressful.

Another painful thing was watching many people go into service. A few things helped me decide not to bother anymore. One being my shoulder getting hurt... another being another stupid clock in point going on my card. Oh well. I give up. Honestly It is too much to care about and worry about. I am tired of every day at work someone asking "Did you spiel yet?" Over and over. It was a harsh reality that I would never get my dream but then again maybe I will find something new. I always wanted to be a trainer, and maybe do assigning. Remaining on podium with thoese two qualifications MIGHT help me to extend. Then my dream of getting my one year pin will come true. Guess that would totally make up for not going into service. There is other reasons... but I will just stick with thoese two. :P

Managment.... where was I last time I talked about them. Right now I dont know what to think. In reality I like them all. Well sort of. The new one really does not seem to like me much at all. No idea why. Not sure what I ever did to her but man, she hates me. The others are not really happy with me sort of on and off. Yet I still like them. Maybe cause they have been around longer and have at some point liked me. Why this new one has so many hours with us though. *Sigh* It is hard. My fav. manager is on vacation a lot lately. Now for 10 days. 10 days... I have NO idea how I will survive 10 days. Last time he was gone for a week I was so close to walking off the job the one day, and coming in and self terminating myself the next. You say "Don't self terminate... you will regret it." But sometimes there is just no other way out. When I am being treated like crap and I have no escape and not light at the end of the tunnel... I start to freak out. 10 days... man I will keep a note posted at the side of my bed and cross them off as I pass though each in agony. And he wonders why I am so happy to see him when he comes back. I mean others who arnt being treated like crap are excited to see him. I am most excited cause he ends the horrible days. Don't want to make management sound bad. We have some amazing managers at our restaurant. Don't get me wrong there. But one just hates me for some odd reason. Cant say she is a horrible manager really, just can say I MUCH more prefer days she is not working, to the days she is working... which seems to be WAY too much... please someone higher up give her some days off.

Life outside of work has not been TOO interesting. I have stopped going to girls. I think there is too much rumors and childish people to go to that. Again not saying everyone is like that. Lots arnt... but some are. And I just don't want to go get drunk around people I don't fully trust. So I am going to start going to games night. I love the people who go and run that. They are really fun to be around at work. I look forward to working with them whenever I get the chance.

The other night I was lucky to have my friend Sam, and we went out for dinner. We both had a rather bad day. She was upset cause the managers were at us about doing everything wrong, and I had gotten a ridiculous letter from someone that came so far out of no where I still have no idea what to say about it. So we went to TRex together. Got one of the last seatings. What a great thing to do to end a rainy bad day. We ranted about management and family together and talked about all kinds of stuff. We even made plans to go hang out at Animal Kingdom on Monday cause we both randomly have that day off. I am excited cause I have not been in a while.

Home... well that is magical all on its own. The other day I found out I MIGHT... just MIGHT have a two bedroom appartment all to myself for a few days. OMG. That is magical. If this happens I promise flip cup... to all the cool people I know... if you don't drink you can come over and drink pop... I don't care... I just want to celebrate that I have the appartment to myself. LOL. Unless it is only one night... then no big party... only small party. LOL. ;)

What else is there to write... Not really a lot. There is no good stories... maybe a few good quotes I guess. But I have to look them up. Maybe I will do a special privet journal of some of the funny quotes I have heard over my time here. So if your not my friend add me... or no quotes for you.


(PS... OMG can you believe I am almost at 7 months being here. Tell you the truth... this 6th month was REALLY hard. I heard it can be... not sure why, but it just seems to be a hard month. Maybe half way point seems to get to people. Anyway I am less then half way done now. Unless I get extended. As usual I promise I will try to keep this updated... LOL. But most likely it will be another month or two... or three before you hear from me. Just poke me if I take too long. I will find something to say.)

PPS: FLORIDA IS REALLY HOT in the summer. How do people live down here... then again maybe I should look into going to the pool one day. LOL. But work is brutal in this weather. Go easy on us cast members in the hot sun. We may not move as fast as in the winter. We are just as hot and tired as you. :)

Hey, I hear a lot of people are wondering where I am. I basically have dropped off the face of this planet. LOL. I really am only on facebook right now. I just don't know what I can write here. I seem to like to keep my time to myself here. LOL. It is hard to explain, and really my life here is not one most people would get. I live is a VERY strange place. Where walls talk to you, and it is not so weird to see a princess signing autographs for other little princesses.

I also find it weird to talk about with with people from work on my friends lists. LOL. Even though I am not saying anything bad about them. LOL. It just seems weird.

So sorry I have not posted much. Work does take a lot out of me and normally my first place I go when I get on the internet is facebook. And don't have enough time to really sit and write about stuff.

My brother and the kids came down for a week. That went by so fast. I am glad they had fun though. And now not next week but the week after my mom and friend come to visit. I am very excited about that, cause I also have a week off that week. All except for one day.

Other then that I am still having the most amazing time of my life here. Seems no matter what troubling times I am faced with my "Disney Family" are there to not only back me up but stand up to the problems that I have faced. (Ya there has been a few, none that I will explain on here as it takes quite a bit to explain.) I have been working a lot lately. Once my family is done coming then I will get back to regular weeks with regular days off. I need that. Also I have some packages waiting to be sent for so long... to family, friends, prize winners and such... it is insane the package stuff here. So I will be sending them home with mom and she will send them from there. So if your waiting for something from me... or don't know your waiting for something from me... as I have a few surprise packages waiting to go... then hopefully I can get rid of all of them that are taking up so much room in my closet. LOL.


Anyway if anyone really wants to know what is up at any time feel free to facebook message me or e-mail me and ask how I am doing or such. I do my best to check things as often as I can. So I will be sure to reply and let you know how the day went or whatever.

It sure has been a while again. I cant believe how hard it is to keep this updated. I also cant believe how much stuff I do each day... or how late I stay up some nights. Every morning I wake up and chat on MSN it seems. I do that often. I normally only have an hour or two... no matter what time I have to work at, before I either find myself off doing something else or going to work. I tend to work morning shifts... and if not right first thing in the morning then I still go in the morning anyway. In fact today for the first time I was a whole hour late for work cause somehow I slept in. My managers said they actually started worrying about me when I did not show up at 10am... I started work at 11am. (Got there today around 12 noon) I thought it was cute that they actually worried about me after 10am. It is very well known I love work a little too much. I have like an unhealthy obsession with it. In fact for over a month, not a single day went by where I did not go to Epcot. Not one. I may have also gone to other parks but I would go to Epcot for a hour or two first. I love it.

Work is work... I am planning on trying to get into service soon. I really want to and never felt more ready. I do need to study though. I am having a hard time. I can be really good at it one night and suck the next. I need to change that. It will be crazy to think I will get to be a server if I can pass. I am excited about that cause today especially I just wanted my own groups of people to talk to. I hated leaving so many people. I just wanted to go to the next level in guest communication and actually have a conversation with them without someone getting mad at me. I guess we can do that out at the front but sometimes you meet a group and you just want to chat a little more then that. Sucks cause at the front you also want to chat with all the other people too. Once I can be a server I can talk a little more to each.

Outside of work has been great too. After our dear friend left us... Chris. My family was down for a week. That was pretty cool to see them. Right after they left, a few days later my friend Mike from college (or as many of my art fans may know him better as Gee) came to visit. That was lots of fun. I got some other fun events ahead as well which I am as always excited about.

Once again sorry I am not posting as much as I like. I know a part of me will really regret it. I am keeping important days in my facebook stuff hidden and maybe one day I will post a few a day when there is not much else going on. Some are privet though so I have to go though and cut things out that cant be public. If anyone is ever wondering about me privet messages on Facebook, DA or Lilymud are the best way to get a hold of me. And feel free to. If you ever have any questions or even just want to know how it is going. Then I will tell you a little more personal about my day that fits what you might want to know most. :)

Anyway... Sorry I cant say much more. As usual I will try to keep posting more. My goal is to maybe post something about a day at work... I cant today... but I want to come on and just tell in full about one of my days at work so you can actually hear what it is like to work there. Need a super awesome one to come up that is worth telling about. Maybe full of quotes and such. :)